As I Think We Could Do With A Break From "Matt Smith! OMG!"

To burble a little further on this entry about cosplaying.

Previously, I admitted to feeling self-conscious and just a tad dorky as a person walking the halls in a costume. This is ironic because, back in the days when I would attend any event with LARP in the description (I was a bit indiscriminate) I never felt self-conscious in whatever costume I'd put together - and I'd put together some corkers, I assure you. Therefore, I can't help reaching the conclusion that playing a character takes the edge off my self-consciousness and/or lets me displace it entirely because it's not me in the funky outfit, so to speak.

(Let's leave the psychology of that for another day, shall we...?)

Or maybe it's simply that having more to "do" - keeping up a character - takes my mind off the there's every chance I look like a doofus factor. That's entirely possible, too.

So, yeah, maybe I'll try packing my RP skills along with the costumes, in future. Mind you, for original concepts/inside jokes such as Generic Time Agent and Lucy!Master, that'll no doubt baffle people - more so than I usually do, I mean. Ah, well...

(No, I am not going to throw together an impromptu LARP for the cosplayers of Gallifrey One, so don't even ask!)

Grr.

I have officially chucked the Kaldor City fanscript into the bin.

It's fanwank and not very good fanwank, either.

I might try to tackle the notion of Kaldor City fanwriting again once I get the urge to be a complete idiot out of my system, but I suspect that'll never happen.

I'm rather irritated about the wasted effort and the fact that I can't seem to pull myself out of the mire that is the aforementioned wankery. But the best thing I can do right now is admit that it's a failed idea and try to leave it behind.

At least the experience introduced me to CeltX which I otherwise wouldn't have known about, so it wasn't a complete waste of time...