Meanwhile...
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It might not sound like much to you, dear reader, but today I did something that I haven't done in, oh, nearly a year...
I grabbed a Doctor Who novel to read on the train and cued up Orbis - an Eight/Lucie story that has been languishing on my iPod since I bought it.
It's been almost a year since I've done either of those things. sure, I saw an eps or two at conventions but, at home, the books and DVDs were getting quite dusty.
You would think that, during massive upheavals, Doctor Who would be a welcome distraction but, strangely enough, it wasn't. Indeed, I found myself feeling being quite avoidant of the whole thing - fan conventions aside.
I think it was displaced anger. I didn't want to hear about worlds being saved while mine was falling apart. Usually, I'm a sucker for the (generally) optimistic world-view put about by DW stories but that has not been the case over the past year.
It certainly wasn't fair of me to take out my anger on a fictional character but, then again, I've lashed out at pretty much everything within range, so why should it have been any different with fandom.
Orbis was silly fun - I think I've heard it before, but it was such a long time ago that it makes sense to start the series over again. Much better, though, was my actual enjoyment of the recording.
Maybe a (small) corner has just been turned.
britgeekgrrl)It might not sound like much to you, dear reader, but today I did something that I haven't done in, oh, nearly a year...
I grabbed a Doctor Who novel to read on the train and cued up Orbis - an Eight/Lucie story that has been languishing on my iPod since I bought it.
It's been almost a year since I've done either of those things. sure, I saw an eps or two at conventions but, at home, the books and DVDs were getting quite dusty.
You would think that, during massive upheavals, Doctor Who would be a welcome distraction but, strangely enough, it wasn't. Indeed, I found myself feeling being quite avoidant of the whole thing - fan conventions aside.
I think it was displaced anger. I didn't want to hear about worlds being saved while mine was falling apart. Usually, I'm a sucker for the (generally) optimistic world-view put about by DW stories but that has not been the case over the past year.
It certainly wasn't fair of me to take out my anger on a fictional character but, then again, I've lashed out at pretty much everything within range, so why should it have been any different with fandom.
Orbis was silly fun - I think I've heard it before, but it was such a long time ago that it makes sense to start the series over again. Much better, though, was my actual enjoyment of the recording.
Maybe a (small) corner has just been turned.
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Date: 2010-03-25 04:50 pm (UTC)And its not fair or unfair of you to have perhaps "taken it out" on Dr. Who (et al); its not a person, its media. If it helped, then by all means, do!
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Date: 2010-03-25 04:55 pm (UTC)Well, it wasn't like I jumped up and down on my DVDs or anything. I just found the notion of listening to/watching the show strangely repellent. I'm still trying to untangle the why of it, but I suppose it doesn't really matter, in the long term.